These past few months have probably been the happiest I've ever been in my life, I have the best friends a guy could ask for, I'm making good grades in school, I have an awesome job, I'm the president of a club at my school and doing every well as the leader, and so on... I'm pretty happy with my life right now... on the outside.
On the inside however I can't help but feel sad... Everyday I get up and go to school, I see my friends, my best friends, my ex friends, my ex girlfriend and her boyfriend. but you know who I don't see, the only person I want to see.
We've been dating now for... exactly 3 months and I've seen her twice. I hate it. I can't stand the fact that her parents don't like me. I hate that my parents keep telling me to break up with her. I hate that at times we go days without so much as one word to each other. I miss sophomore year, when I saw her everyday. When I walked her to class all the time, When I could actually talk to to her, I miss her cute laugh, I miss seeing her smile when she saw me each morning, When we would sit there and just talk about the most random things, I miss her.
In 6 months I'm leaving and I'm going far away, and I don't plan on ever coming back here, I don't want to spend the next 6 months hoping I might get the chance to see her this weekend and than not getting to see her. I hate everything about this. People say life isn't fair. I get that, but this is different. It's not right that this is happening to us. it's not right that I can't spend time with my girlfriend when she lives 10 minutes away.
I don't see whats to bad about me just wanting to spend time with her, but apparently the whole world is against us dating.
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